Valeria Latorre's Theory of Openness







I feel safe
when
I do not feel alone

but
not alone
with my true feelings

when I
when I express myself
and see
see that I am alone
when
none shares my thoughts
or
one denies my thoughts
when one denies
things I believe to be true
I feel scared

I feel scared
when there is this kind of
denial
no willingness to understand
each other

and safety
safety is only related to people
in my life

but sometimes people make me feel scared



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I do not think
I have ever been in the situation
when I was truly alone
forced to face
a dangerous
environment


I have never been isolated
in one place
with no contacts
thinking
there is no one that could help me

that would probably be a
different
feeling of safety
that would probably be
when I would discover
what it truly means
to feel safe
what my strategies are
but for now -

I do not feel safe



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I am safe if I protect myself
from things
that hurt me
that make me
feel alone
and
not understood
not listened to

so
I find
I protect myself
I turn to my world
it gives me comfort
my world
inspired
by my mind
my world
developing
since I was a child

I was turning inwards

now
safety is still
my world
but
inspired
by the others
other people who went
inwards
and found their comfort
nurturing
their worlds

like me

so
there is a connection
even if it is
just
an audio
or
a video
or
a book

I feel safe

so
it means
I feel safe
when
I feel understood
when
I feel connection with people
and
their truth
is
very close
to
my truth
when
there is a desire
for
understanding
and
opening up
and acceptance

but
true acceptance
and
true comprehension
of
what the other person
feels

the openness
makes me feel safe
but
when people are
closing themselves off
I do not feel safe
I feel
scared
and
angry

so
when I am scared
I am
angry

not
all the time
but
most of the time



*



so
going back to
when
I was a child

feeling of safety

I felt safe
because
I was free
to
dive into
my world
I did not have to please
anyone
I was free
before school
before I was forced
to
do
things

but
my inner world
it has never
left me
it is always
here

when I was a child
I remember
everyone was going out
and I
was going in
I could stay in
and
I was the happiest
I could ever be
and
I felt safe



*



I feel safe
when
I feel really confident
in being me
being myself
completely
because
I am
an insecure person
but
I turned insecure
just
when
I was outside
of
my inner world
because
I was
misunderstood
outside of
my inner world

I remember
not being
an insecure child
before rejections
and
before
not being
understood
by
the outside

so
I want to
say
I felt safe
when
I could express myself
and
I started to fell
insecure
when I met with rejection
when I was not understood
at all
by
the outside
and
then
this
turned to anger
because
when you do not understand -

it takes time
to understand
that each one of us is just trying their best
and we have different experience
but
in my world
I could not be understood
and I could not understand

so
it was both sides
I could not understand
others’ worlds



*



this feeling
insecure
in time it became a block to my abilities
and now
to unblock
my abilities
I really have to focus
and
the moments
when
I feel really focused
are few

when I was a child
there were no blocks at all
but now -

I feel
these blocks
and unblocks
and
it is much more difficult
to
get liberated
again
and
go back to
unblocked
and
child-like mind

it is
very
difficult
but
this is what I am trying to do
because
this is
the only way
to
feel safe
and
when it happens
I feel safe
and I do not need
anyone
I do not need to lean
on anyone

so
that block
of the mind
is
what makes me feel unsafe
in any situation

and the mind
unblocked
makes me feel safe

and
this is the most
beautiful feeling

when you are free
to be your self

and your mind is
completely unblocked